Step 2 (Laparoscopy) - Preparation

Holy crap am I freaking out!

I've never had a major surgery done and I've been worrying a lot about it lately. I know there probably won't be any complications, and I will deal with it as needed...but I am still paranoid.

I really do not want an IV stuck in the back of my hand, its just wrong to have a strip of metal hanging out of a vein! I need to write out my worries and then justify them, so bear with me.

IV - I've had 6 tattoos, surely I can deal with one needle ?

Taking out my contacts so that I can't see. I'm honestly pretty freaking blind, -5.50 in each eye. Without contacts I feel totally lost, and I do NOT like wearing glasses. They make me feel claustrophobic, I just don't like things on my face.

Contacts problem - I may not even tell the docs I have them in. OR I'll be so tired and groggy that it won't matter that I'll be blind as well.

I'm not keen on having a tube shoved down my throat either. I know it'll help me breathe but damn. I get all choked up with my tonsils as it is, much less with a tube in there.

Tube problem - at least I'll be knocked out for this, so I should only really just expect a sore throat.

I have to be totally naked...urgh. I knew I should have kept running the past few weeks!

Naked problem - with the people around here, I'm sure they've seen much worse.

Poor Andrew will be waiting a long time for me.... at *least* 2 hours, probably more. I really want to keep him next to me for as long as possible. If they won't let him go back to the secondary waiting room with me I will surely have a panic attack. This is one of the points that worries me the most :(

Without hubby - I'm just going to have to breakdown in front of lots of people for this one, who cares if strangers watch me ball my eyes out!

Being put under is just a freaking weird experience in itself. I had it done for my wisdom teeth YEARS ago, and I just get giddy and can't catch my breath and panic... ugh.

Anesthesia - No getting around this, just hope its quick and I forget everything.

Then there is the worry of after the surgery. I know Andrew will do his very best, but what about food ? Bless him, he's not the first to make a nice healthy meal. Its usually pizza & chips, which I don't think I'm going to be hungry for that and I am sure I won't feel like cooking.

Perhaps I'll call the doctor for some anxiety meds.
***Update*** OK, so I tried to get some meds to calm me down. Didn't work. Apparently stressing out and crying over the phone is not a good enough reason! Well kiss my ass and thanks a lot!


I'll update after the surgery to see what is found, once I feel up to it.